crisis delta change pivotal crucial defining.

crisis=turning point. a pivotal moment.
as defined by Religion 43 with Peter Kaufman.
yeah, so even though this resolution will inevitably fail (partly or wholly), i resolve to change my mood tomorrow. screw indiffernece. screw contradiction. i need to

STOP
THINKING AND
STOP

DWELLING AND
STOP
MUSING OVER THE SAME CRAP
over
and over
and over again
always the same crap
the same the same unchanging but apply different
forms of thinking
different methods
different
analizations.
ENOUGH.
bastante. no mas.
i just need to
DO
SOMETHING
anything
not everything
just one small thing
even if it is
ostensibly selfish and
for myself.
maybe i should be taking better care
of myself.

i wish i had a syringe filled with Motivation or Determination or Optimism to drown out all the Negative.

things that i could/can/and will do all/in part tomorrow/this week to pass the time:
-run 1 mile.
-go to borders and peruse through that book beth recommended
-compile creative cd's of wondeful emo music for matt and carolyn
-write bobby hill a letter and develop his pictures.
-call grandma ann.
-write rosario a letter...i don't want her to become just another "story" of mine...she's a real live PERSON and oh how much i would like to write to her to just maintain our relationship.
-go to the mall to get my glasses fixed.
-read about chile at borders.

a borders visit is in order.

and i really do want to get excited about chile.